isolated !!

I had been captured by sorrow
how about tomorrow?
I had been caged by darkness
why can't they see my goodness?

Now I don't know how to face life
can't handle each and every strife
my whole was now dominated by black
cause of my heart's crack

they can't understand what i truely feel
will my soul tend to heal?
They don't try to figure out what's the bottomline
hate and isolation dared to combine

i know i tried my best to prove the real me
but why can't they see?
I don't wanna be weak right now
can you even tell me how?

I had been embraced by the thought of being alone
mutual of being struck by a stone
pain from this feeling has no cure
only me,who can help myself,that's for sure

i was kissed by comparison
like having endless days in prison
doesn't have any idea how to escape this mirage
can't even master this collage

i was imprisoned by hate
blinded by worst fate
covered with emptyness
shielded by selfishness

i found myself helplessly lying on the bed
i guess that my cheerfulness went dead
non-stop crying and voiceless shouting
that's me,being isolated.

i will never forget you :)

When I die,
shed no tears.
Dont lament
or grieve..
Its my time
to leave.

Show your respects
and wish me the best.
Sing no sad songs,
let me rest in peace.

Death will not stop
me from loving you.
So dont live your 
life crying over me.

Everyone moves on.
And I wish you the
best. But for me
its gods final 
test.

Sing a song,
as if nothings
happend. 
As if no pain
has fallen 
over your life,

You'll meet a girl
and she'll make you
happy. But promise me
you'll never forget me.
Ill never forget you.

you are my life :)

"You know what? you are life.
The moment in my eyes;
The smile that makes me rise.

The path of my dreams,
The reason I sleep.

Untouched and far away,
Still the one that gets me light.

You know what? You are life.

I don't really see you in my luck,
with my destiny, away from the fear.

I hope to see you next time around,
Holding my hand, with nurturing and care.

I'll pray, I'll ask, I'll beg,
To gift me you in my next life.
Wrapped with my love, packed in my heart.

Won't even thn let you go,
Cause you know what....YOU ARE LIFE

i will ask Allah to gift you in my next life :)

REMEMBER ME JUST THE WAY I AM

Sometimes I still hear your voice call my name
Between the stars sparkling in the night sky
I thought I never lose you in every way I take
I remember you, you are part of me, I am sure

I still feel every teardrop I shed for you 
I always keep them inside, try so hard no one knows
I will always remember you in every step I make
In every dream I share with you, I hold them tight

Please remember me just the way I am
When I was with you, with every smile I gave
Still want to see the sweetest of you the last time I met
Will you remember me the way I remember you?

All the roses in my heart will fade someday
And I will be invisible anymore in this world
But still I will make sure that I am in you and you are in me
Will you remember me the way I remember you?

my world !!

As the tears swell up deep in my eyes
For once in my lifetime I feel alive
Dwelling on the past, I will not allow
The fears I once had mean nothing to me now

"Let go of the past and think of the future.", they say
They don't know what its like being afraid every single day
Afraid of losing the one that you love the most
The only thing I want right now is for us to be close

he means everything to me, but does he know?
Can he sense the feelings that I just can't show?
I want him to see how much he changed my views
he's just someone I would never want to lose

The hardest thing when loving someone so far away
Is not knowing if they will still love you the very next day
It's not that I doubt it, I just wish he knew
That sometimes i just don't know what to do

I love him with all the love my heart has to provide
So boy, don't worry.. I have nothing to hide
If you were here, you could tell by the tears in my eyes
This love we've been sharing, I hope it never dies. (-_-) ♥

my world is falling apart :'(

Being around you amazes me..
Your thoughtfulness, your gentleness
the way you warm my heart
like no one has in a very long time.

I thank God for you in my life..
All I want is for someone to love me back
the way I love them.

Why is that simple task always so difficult?
I have never been any ones first choice,
I know I never will be.

Once you get out of a bad relationship
meet someone who actually treats you right,
you get scared and wonder if its a dream..
pinch yourself cause its not.

Never apologize for saying what you feel.
It's like saying sorry for being real.
If someone really wants to be in your life,
they will make an effort for it.

But if you take the time to check out and see,
You might just end up falling in love with me...

waiting

I look back then and think where did that little girl go?
I look at the me now and wonder how this came from
That? I look at the me then and wonder if she would
Kick the crap out of the me now? Or the other way around
I think the me then would look at the me now and say
Wow your so different your so dark? And yet I have always
Been dark so dark……… back then I wore pink I wore white
I wore the colors that they wanted me to show
But now I only ware black and dark colors now
I am different I am showing the true me
The me who wants to be free. When the day comes
That I will ware colors again will be the day
I truly am happy but that day is not to day……
But its is soon I know this in my heart
That the colors will show through
The pond of darkness .

love

'I love you with all my heart I thought that you should know,
But you don't think I mean it how can this be so.
You mean the world to me and you light up my day,
You touch my heart in every sweet way.
I thought that my heart would be locked forever, and my life would be apart,
Then you touched my life and you unlocked and put a beat in my heart.
I want to say that I love you and you are always on my mind,
A boyl as wonderful as you is very hard to find.
It makes me feel comfortable when you are with me by my side,
The love that I have for you is obvious and is something I cannot hide.
I love when I hold your hand because you have the biggest place in my heart,
And every day I pray that we will never be apart.
I love you so much and I want you to see,
There is no one else in my life but you I just wish that you would believe.
You bring the rays of sunshine into my life everyday that I am with you,
The love that I have for you is clearly pure and very true.
When I am with you, you make all my pain go away,
Since I have been with you, my view on life is clear, because the path i am walking, you are guiding & lighting the way.
When I look into your beautiful eyes I see the love you have for me is true,
And I want you to know these few words,
My Angel I want to let you know that I Love You.''

To my baby whom I love with all my heart. ♥ :)
I MISS YEW...!!

sometimes

Sometimes I stare out my window
Wishing my remote control
Could change the channel on the faces I see;
Faces that say,
life's not a game,
But everyday is a battle with pain
Faces marred by the foot of oppression
scarred in the soot of depression,
Hard hearts;
Lips drip fits of aggression
Blades on hips for protection
Misdirectioned minors
Minus a touch
Because fathers never seem to love them enough
So they say stuff
like,“I’m puttin’ in work.
”When really they just bein’ mischievous,
They ain’t soldiers,
there miscreants,
Deviant, and defiant,
parenting limits over whelmed by exposure
I understand some make it over,
But most end up floatin’ in the river
Unidentified,
like they was never alive,
While some are force fed fistfuls of fallacies
Til morality is traded for salary
that can’t pay for celery
Faces that scream,
party til they bury me,
Cause apparently
life is a gift and a curse
The present hurts,
the past ain’t last,
and the future ain’t guaranteed,
And since I didn’t ask to come,
I can’t wait to leave.
Faces of pregnant teens
who lost their dreams to
In magazines
And caught by concrete ghetto
streets
Where misguided potential and ambition
Meets
Where dreams deferred find refuge in addiction
Cause religion is imprisoned by tradition
No interventions,
Cause though we want to change G’s to Gents
We don’t want to go through the pain of the process
We want the progress
But society's souless
Those that we lose can never turn back
Disfunction's a train
On a run away track

no story

We no longer have a story to tell, no voice offering provocation to initiative nothing that gives me a desire to fill in the blanks or say thanks when a lyric is finished, make me feel like you've accomplished a mission when you pour words into verse like water for those who thirst for knowledge, Make me understand what it means to reach down into the bowels of profundity and steal inspiration from the jaws of simplicity, give me a memory worth remembering, like I wanna be there again. put me in a place that I've never been, and make me feel at home, like I'm known

We're starving for creativity! maybe contemporary poets have no proclivity to inspire, but light me a fire with no match only matched words that match verse to hurts attach worth and work the love that ventilates hate through pores that relate purpose to dreams, and realize the screams

Then offer me a recipe for motivation, mental stimulation creating balance, I need to be challenged not just energized by canned stamina, I don't need all the answers, just relate take my pain, love, and appetite, write! unleash on a mic and ignite minds like trinitrotoluene, offer me a dream without sleep then pinch me when I arrive so I know that it's real, make me feel what you feel without being who you are, but knowing your hart, remind me of what it means to live, give me a reason to forget and forgive, it's not that I'm suicidal, but my survival has an imperative thirst for illumination but we seem to be stuck in the dark ages pacing, platforms promoting popularity unable to define the value, of souls we sell for the sake of ambition without conviction and I'm convinced that it's impossible to listen,

If nobody has a story to tell.

.....

Reminisce that of lasting memories,
A special place for each other in our eyes,
Time has cruelly torn so many apart,
For time has depicted this heart's..

Time has withered away many bonds,
Within time we've been torn apart.
The unfairness within our sacred love,
Always meant to reside in separate hearts.

Intertwined within loving hands,
A lifetime's touch meant to last.
For love has no definite boundary,
No other love could have surpassed.

Every night you leave me alone,
Never thinking about my feelings anymore.
Don't you dare sit there and say that you still,

Love me when your love left along time ago.
Endless tears I cry wishing that you really did,
Still love me but I knew that your heart..
was never mine.
I had it all along and I knew just didn't want to believe

Tender nights when you held me was just a lie.
Emotionless is all I seem to get from inside of you.
Admit it our whole lives together was just a false,
Reality that was never more then just dream fantasy.
Still yet through all my endless tears do I miss you my dear.

gurl and boy

When a Girl is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a Boy is quite ?
Trillion of thoughts & worries running in his mind.

When a Girl is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

When a Boy is not Arguing ?
He is think the Solution for finish the Arguing.

When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions,
She is wondering how long you will be around.

When a Boy looks at Girl with eyes full of questions ?
He wants Promise that won’t ever leave him

When a Girl answers “i’m fine” after a few seconds,
She is not at all fine.

When a Boy answer I am fine after a few second ?
He is making himself Fine just for you but although he is not

When a Girl stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.

When a Boy Stares at you ?
He is wondering, you are lying to me ??

When a Girl lays on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a Boy Melt in your Arms ?
He is wishing that time will stuck here forever.

When a Girl calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.

When a Boy Calls you everyday ?
He is willing to talk to you.

When a Girl sms’s u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.

When a Boy sms's you everyday ?
He wants to make you happy at least once in a Day.

When a Girl says I love you,
She means it.

When a Boy say I LOVE YOU ?
He didnt describe properly but he always prove how madly he loves you.

When a Girl syas that she can’t live without you,
She has made up her mind that yor are her future.

When a Boy says that he cant live without you ?
He has Dedicated his entire life to her Happiness.

When a Girl says “i miss you”
No one in this world can miss you more than her.

When a Boy says I miss you?
His heart is beating more then enough because he really Misses you.

what do you want?

She sits there waiting for compliments
With eyes so filled with utter judgments
She wears my favorite women’s fragrant
And thinks of ways for my punishment

Not a word is being said
The silence cuts, the roads ahead
She says you’re a man with a big bighead
Who needs a reality check instead

I say I’m only your projection
What you see in me, is your reflection
Maybe you need to learn Self-Love
Instead of quitting when the road gets tough

What you think is Ego, is my confidence
Or don’t you want, to feel my presence
Do you think you want, a powerless man
I can’t be that, cause it’s not in my plans

PS: i still love you :S

“I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you
don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are
words waiting to come out to tell you how I feel, like how I miss you.
And how I love you despite my broken heart n wretched fate. And how
I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those
words may forever stay in my heart, locked inside..
Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too...
but I'll never know..!”

i will survive..!!

You can always mend a broken heart,
even if it comes out crooked,
but you can NEVER mend a shattered heart.

Like mine???

All this time you told me I was wrong,
now I know you were right.
I am not as great as you were though
and I'm not as bad as you thought I was.

How long it would take for someone to notice,
one tiny thing completely ruins it!!
and then would they even care?
wonders if I were to disappear..
been trying so hard to make it work and just..

As you think that its is all getting back on track,
have you ever felt the urge to scream,
cry, punch someone and kick something all at once?
But all you can do is cry.

It's quite frustrating!
Sad, Hurt, Angry, Mad & Disappointed.
But you know what?
I will pull my boot straps up and will move on,
it will hurt but i will survive.

song of a broken soul

I'm rude, annoying, mean and weird. I sing in the shower. I ask stupid questions. I behave childishly most of the time. I can be too serious when it's not required. I dress outrageously. I remark sarcastically. I'm dangerous and careless. I can be everything that I need to be and more. I don't care what anyone thinks of me cause I just love the way God made me.

I'm all that I have to be to fulfill me. I need myself to be me. I am no one's and no one is mine. I am as free as an eagle and as caged as a canary.

My heart has a song which it needs to sing yet my heart's voice can't be heard for there is no one who wants to listen. I care not, who listens and who doesn't care. I won't sing because someone is listening, I will sing because I have a song.

I'm gonna scream and shout on the top of my voice and sing with all my might. I have the power and I have the strength to bear it all. I have the energy and I won't stop till I can't sing no more.

My soul might be broken, but my heart's still beating. I'm breathing and I'm not gonna stop living.

I'm flying high and keeping my ground. I have redeemed myself and it's all okay and alright for me. I'm fine. Don't bother coming back to see how I turned out or what ever happened.

I'm free. I'm caged. I'm tamed. I'm wild. I'm dangerous. I'm innocent. I've killed. I've died. I've bared more than anyone I know. I can be all this and so much more. My heart is beating and I'm gonna keep on living.

I was killed once, twice, thrice but no more am I gonna take it now. I'm singing what my soul desires. I'm dead yet so alive.

veni

My external persona is wise, strong and reliable,

even if my inside is tender, naive and wavering.

Do not think to ever hide from me your pain,

as for a friend I never hide and thus never quell.

My love hurts, when broken it is,

but a friendship strong it's always within.

If I asked you for help to heal my insides,

don't worry my friend, that's me on your side.

I'll try to be objective and wise just for you,

no matter our past, no matter who you choose.

My love is consuming, and can be a source of pain,

but always a friend I will be, I will be until the end.

So even if lovers' love doesn't run in our veins,

and even if never a couple we'll be,

relax your senses and rest your head here,

my shoulder to cry, your head lay on me.

I'll hold you and provide you with emotional support,

so the best choice you can make, without fear, without doubt.

I know that trivial this path doesn't look,

but trust all your past, and the friends who are with you.

nothing such as love

Lying in bed. It's 2 a.m. and I'm still wide awake. Consumed by the thoughts of you. I am wishing for my life to end, but every-time that I come close to dying, you whisper life into my world. You say somethings that make me hold on to what I have for just a little longer. You make me want to live and be alive.

You make me feel like I've been blessed a thousand times in a single moment. Every-time that our eyes meet, I feel fireworks go off but even I'm not that stupid that I won't see, that you're make me fall for you so you can hurt me.

It happened once, it happened twice, I'm not gonna let it happen a third time. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done. No more pain and no more sufferings.

I can't take anymore. I need to be free and live my life without you looking at me. I need to be free. I feel like I'm stuck in a room with no windows nor doors, and I'm lost in that space. I need to be let loose.

I fight for my vengeance each day and each day I get closer. I will get even with those who ever hurt me.

Never have I forgotten a favor neither have I forgiven an injury.

Merciless and ruthless. To survive in this hell on earth, one has to be all this. Love is something that myths are made off. No such ever was, no such will ever be.

It's all those fairytale lies, we're made to believe. I have broken the spell and now I know all that is concealed by others. No love is there, nor will there be. It's something that was told in shapes of lies to make us blind but I can see and I'm free.

I can hear and see blood and wars and deaths all around me. If love had existed, maybe all this wouldn't be the case.

They lie and they lie again. Love is real when it isn't. Love is something so ancient. It's no more. Not anymore.

healed

I hate myself weak, and loath myself cry,

In all my existence I braved the foul sky,

the one that attempts to bring your wings down,

by wind, light and thunder that I left behind.

My flight was so swift and did never pretend,

that my life was harder, a lie never made.

Could never remember the last time I cared,

to cheat for a victory, not needing I swear.

My writings are simply too dark these last days,

I don't want to see a reflection, a mirror, my face.

I know I will heal with time once again,

but strength lacking now, forgive my loud pain.

I know that a balance must ever exist,

to love so intensely a price there must be.

A young generation of lovers will be,

that still have the strength to this path, try to see.

I am very tired of the games people play,

to get what they want, to throw me away,

to tell me that love is Chimera and fake,

and that everyone suffers and no one can change.

I thought had the power to show this poor world,

that love is stronger and I yet can give more.

No matter how selfish some people can be,

with love you could change them, like it transformed me.

But age has its toll, and grow weaker each day,

to gain back the force I need love to help me.

To whisper me kindness, to hear what I need:

That healed I will be... when I wake from this dream. 

‎''You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before and she may love again. But if she loves you now what else matters? She's not perfect - You ain't neither, and two of you may never be perfect together, but you can love perfectly and unconditionally at this moment if you try. she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold on to her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So Don't hurt her, Never change her, don't analyze and don't expect anything more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, Kiss her when she gaze in your eyes, Love her like nobody ever imagined, care for her like she does, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there. Thats how you should love a woman.'' 

apology...not accepted

I'm sick of the fake apologizes. If you mean it then try to show me. I'm tired of the fake sorries. You don't care what happens to me, you just want what's best for you. Not matter how hard I try, I'm always the one last standing in a long, long line. I will break out and I will break you. I will keep standing when all the rest have fallen.

All my life, I've been hurt, broken and scarred, yet one word is supposed to heal me suddenly?

An apology has no meaning left for me. It only shows that you are too careless to go on without me. I'm tired of all the pathetic drama that you try to pull off. It's been so tough on me. To be with you, then get myself broken, then rebuilt and then broken again, and all you have to say is I'm Sorry.

I've stood down not once, not twice, not thrice but so many countless times. I'm done. No more lies. No more sorries. You break me again and you'll seriously be one who'll get hurt.

I've let you go so many times, now, it's time to get even. Revenge shall be as sweet as honey and as poisonous as venom. It'll devour you from with in but even if that won't work, there's always the old fashion way.


You may think you're tough but have you ever encountered my anger? My rage is something so  intense. You won't believe it's me.

I've had enough. I just can;t take it anymore. I won't just simply move on, I'll make you pay first. Your screams will echo into oblivion. You will suffer until I feel satisfied.

You will endure pain, even if you can't handle it. You will be made to cry.

hippie

I thought you’re different from the rest
I thought you are one of the best
But you found a way to prove me wrong
Now I know together, we’re not that strong

So you got caught up in other’s Drama
And blindly followed like a man in a Comma
But did you stop to think of the real truth
Or you wanted to be hip, with the youth

I’m disappointed, confused and a little sad
How you let someone play, with your head
Are a few moments of fun worth it All
Is it really worth selling your Soul?

That’s a question only you could answer
As you jump around like a hippie dancer
But when you wake up, from this phony Love
I might be gone, cause I’ve had enough!

ANSWER FOR A QUESTION IN RELATIONSHIP & LOVE

The questions of relationships & Love again & again, it's so simple so complex,
many asked why can a friend be our lover, while our lover is a friend?

If a feeling for a friend evolves to true Love that's fine in that case he will be our beloved best friend.

But when they told me we can make a relationship with a friend coz he's here & we just want to have fun, so what is the problem??& the next day we will be having another..
Where is the respect of feelings? Where is the human feeling? Where is the humanity, true authentic heart???

A relationship or lets say being physical with friends without real Love for me it's a sin, being physical only just for fun for me is giving up our values & real feelings & obeying only to our instincts, why would we allow ourselves to degrade ourselves, transforming to other non human creatures?..

Sometimes both partners have same objective "fun" having no problem with the disgrace of their humanity & some other partner have other objective behind accepting this game, in all ways this is diminishing to our humanity this is destructive more than constructive, it may cause problems as well.
Every relation that is not based on true Love is wrong and what is wrong is usually followed with the worst circumstances.

Fun is good when as long as it's decent, relationships should be built on mutual true Love feelings, no one can have fun with feelings, the soul is feelings, our heart is Love feelings, no one gambles with Love..

& If it comes to me a friend is always for me a friend, a friend for me is a brother that can't me my Beloved, our heart will know from the first second we lay our eyes on a guy if he will be just a friend or our heart will beat for him.

If we build on fake unreal instinctive superficial materialistic feeling, all will be destroyed & hurt both but if we build on strong true Love basis it will be a blessed divine relationship.

The choice is yours let your heart be your guide, don't fool your heart, don't go for just what you get if it's not really what you want, believe in yourself give yourself a chance to find your true Love, each one of us deserve to find his soul mate, after all that's why we were born to truly Love.

broken memories

A touch. A whisper. A hint in your gestures. It all reminds of the memories past. The time gone too far now, I wish not to look back. The places we were at, do not exist anymore. The feelings we had were not real, even at that time.

Seems like decades have past yet I feel no desire to relive those memories.

Another count down begins to destroy me from within. I stand with my hands covered in blood of the past. I begin to feel the desire to kill even more. It fuels my passion to murder those who killed me.

I need something more in life. I need something to complete me. I want to be able to be what I need to be. I need to find myself in ways that you stole from me.

I can't fall nor break. I'm trapped within layers of myself, wrapped in my pride and ego. I wish to escape from it all but I'm stuck. Your black eyes follow me everywhere and no matter how hard I try, I could never hide.

I'm tired of false pretenses, and I'm sick of all the memories that keep on playing over and over again in my head. I can never forget, even though I try to. I can never forget how I touched your heart and how you broke mine.

Even though we haven't truly seen one another in years, I'm still broken inside. My wounds are too deep to be buried with time. You never knew me, but I made myself in all the ways you had wished for me to be.

I was all yours and yours only, yet you deceived me in ways that made me cruel. What you did to me was unsettling to my mind and even if still given a chance, I would go back to change it all.

You turned me into this heartless oblivion that takes in everything given and puts it away where no one can find anything. You turned me into something that I had despised most.

Still, I go over everything I said and did, all that I never could say nor do, yet I am never able to reason all the wrongs that you did to me.

You broke me down, waited for me to rebuild and then again, came back around. I wanted to run away, but every time I start to run, you come back again.

i am strong enough..!

I always thought we'd grow old together.

Facing each new day.

But now, in the tears that fall upon my face.

Your memory fades away.



We walked with our problems in silence.

Dawn falling into dusk.

Leafs collecting at our cold and tired feet.

Along with what grieved us.



In my bedroom, surrounded by empty walls.

I want to scream and shout.

My mouth opens, but the tortured words...

Just won't come out.



You! This man I began to love.

Got lost for a "Nothing".

Everything we'd built, destroyed.

Over one careless fling.



Used to think I was so lucky.

I had it all.

Nothing unknown is knowable, so depressed.

You just watched me fall.



My heart bleeds.

The snow becomes red.

How life has mocked you.

Were you ever here? memories gone, dead.



Your like salt on an open wound.

Reminding me you once were here.

Warm like the blood in my veins.

The love I had for you, so dear.



In my distorted, broken dreams.

So empty, yet real.

I'm floating through air.

I touch your face, hoping to feel.



This frozen silence belongs to you.

I'm all that you see.

I only want revenge.

Giving back what you gave to me.



Sorry I loved you so.

And you didn't feel the same.

When I think of what could have been.

What a waste! Such a shame!



Stone by stone, I'll re-build my life.

I'm stronger when hardest hit.

I know only to well.

This is the time I must never quit.



My conscious asks the question.

I long to hear.

Is the grass really greener on the other side?

My conscious asks the question.

I will always fear.

i am who i am..!!!

what the fuck am i expected to be

something im not,

something you want me to be.

how can i say this respectively,

i am who i am

dont try to change me.

i only change for the better

not for the worst

its my turn

dont interupt me

i aint fake

its me being me

im saying this sternly.

im just trying to prove a point

that not everybodys the same.

if its to good to be true

its said" it often is

i begg to differ,

i disaprove.

so shame,

shame on you,

for judging a book

by its cover

there is mor to me

to be discovered.

i dont know why im so nice

i dont no why im so polite

this is my world

welcom to my life.

if only you were in my shoes

seen what i been through

between a broken home,

abuse

beatin and bruised.

i vent the truth

fuck the word youth

it makes me cringe

like nails ona chalk bored

makes me sick.

i chose to be

the way i am

for others to see,

that there's still good

not just bad.

its the life i wanna lead

in the present, not the past.

i dont ask for your sympathy,

just that only what you see

is me being me. so i say again,

i will never be

somthing that i am not,


a cheater


a user.

i've seen it

i lived it,

i dont wish it,

that life on no one,

that i swear

i do not,

its not me.

i will never change

i will always

be nice,

that is

me

star

I look at this world, as I feel its loneliness in the dark,

Seeing the sky without a sun, a light that can blind me.

Looking at the stars as I begin to think of you.



As my fragile and broken heart opens its doors,

Thoughts of you enter my mind.

Each night your not here with me.

An image of loneliness walks into my heart

Wondering how it would feel to be in your arms tonight


As my heart begs to see a captured moment of his smile

You look at me, as tears drip from your eyes.

I wonder how it would feel to touch those tears,

Like a rose in the morning dropping its pedals one by one.

I wonder how would it feel to hold his trembling body

As my heart craves to be by his side?


I want to love you for as long as there is sun followed by night.

The feel of lifting you up, when you have fallen,

From all the hurt you have felt in your heart.

Like a trembling child on it’s first attempt to walk.



As I feel these things in my heart,

I see one star shining bright far away

One star among millions, come forward, in the night

Is it you I ask myself, in amazement

As if this star can actually hear and see my every thought,

Is it you, the Man I want in my life looking over me

Weeping on my every thought, feeling what I feel.

All these feelings rushing through my veins

As I sit here thinking of you.
= Its Me =
meow 

hello and goodbye

Hello, today I will talk about how fragile things can be. Once broken, will never be the same.
When we have something in our hands, we never appreciate it. We take it for granted. We never missed it because we always thought, there's more to come. We will always get it.
But the truth is, sometimes we'll never realise how important something is until its gone. Gone with everything that's happened. You might be able to hug your friend today, she might be gone the next day. Without a trace. Because things come without notice, we never did have the chance to prepare ourselves so that we could cherish every moment together. No one will tell you when the special someone's going to die, or leave, or never come back. Why is it that people have to experience it to learn our life most valuable lesson: appreciation!
The moment when the lesson is learnt, we cannot get back to where we were, cannot cherish and experience the same feeling ever again. All we could do is to move on, look forward, and all those moments will remain as memories. We live to regret. Is this true? From regrets only we would be able to apply it to our future lives so that we could cherish any special moments with the special someone. Is this what life's lesson about?
Its so hard to understand what the nature want us to be, what we were made to be. Is the road already chosen or do we have a choice? When we reach a junction is there a right and wrong turn to take? Nobody knows. Who knows if what you chose today is the right direction? We will not know. But all we can do is to go on with life and do what we can.....*-*
                                                                              

you are my world

► With each passing day.I look forward to seeing you
It's almost as if my life was shattered .And now your here
My dream come true

I never thought. Feelings would grow
But you proved me wrong. It's almost like a love song

Your that girl. That has won me over
Your that girl .That I want a little bit closer

Your that girl . I wake up to see
Your that girl. I always want next to me

Your that girl. Who makes me laugh
Your that girl. That never makes me sad

Your that girl. With those beautiful eyes
Do you believe in love at first sight?

I just want you to know. I don't know where this will go
I want it to be special. I can promise you so

I wont brake your heart. I wont make you cry
I wont give you any doubts. Ill tell you why?

Why I wont hurt you Because thats not like me
Why Ill make you laugh Cuz your as beautiful as can be

Why you'll smile Because it's another nice day
Or another reason Is cuz I'm here to stay

I want you to know How much you really mean
I can't describe it in words Cuz it's to strong of a feeling

I wish you could look inside my heart one day
See how much it's been torn and repaired
And how it beats as you sooth all my pains away

I wish you could look deep into my eyes. And make all the wishes in the world
I'll try to make them come true . As long as you'll one day be my girl

Or at times of need. I've proved to be here
No not because I have to. But because your special my dear

So I'll make this simple. Short and Sweet
Your not like other's. You almost mean the world to me. ◄
♥♪ ᶆєОɯ ♪♥

mine story ov survival

Love me or hate me. I don't really care cause no matter what you do, in the end, everything you do, inspires me to write more. I can take anything you throw at me, and make the best of it. I know you envy it, but baby, get real. You were never really worth it.

Just loving the way you lie to my face. Just enjoying the way I love your hate. Just priceless to see those big black eyes. I still dream about those lonely black nights. I've grown so much, you should do the same. We can grow together or go on our separate ways.

Can this be any more harder to deal with? Life's teaching me how to beg for mercy.

I am done with all the hypocrisy. I can't help myself nor stop myself from feeling the way I feel. It feels amazing. You had a shot but you missed. Now, watch me fly away like the wind.

Some times, life changes the rules to show you how to play better. Some times, love is forgotten to make you remember what it felt like. Some times, hurt is given to make you stronger. However, some times, the right rules and the right love is given to you, only to see if you can feel the difference after everything that life's taught you.

For the one who made me cry just so he could hold me tight. For the one who made me laugh just so he could feel my heart. For the one who made me fall just so he could me and then never let go. And for the one who watched me become what I am and then said nothing about helping me, I love every thing about him.

However, the night passes and the sun rises and renews my soul and teaches me to survive. You made me crash and burn, but I rose from the ashes of my defeat, stronger then ever before.

Never did you listen when I used to say, "You can't bring me down." You used to laugh but now look again, I'm up and soaring. Nothing can drown me. Nothing can bring me down.

I have evolved and I have survived.

i was loved..!!

I was loved, same as you

He promised me like he did to you

It’s nothing but a dream come true

To feel being loved without adieu

I kept it long inside of me

I pretended I was blind to see

I’m afraid my heart once bled

So I didn’t cared, I smiled instead 

I found someone I ran up to

You lost yours though found someone new

You lost your king and I have my own

An armored knight, superficially grown

Clothed with iron-clad, it’s a mere disguise

He hides a secret, an impious lie

Funny how in this silly game of love

Both of us adore the same façade

We fell in love with the same guy

I remained quiet and patiently, I cried

And waited long for these tears to stop

It will, but this pain I feel cannot

I felt his signs of a sad adieu

For the last time he’ll say “I love you”

But back on times as what we were before

With his promises that exist no more

He loves you as he once loved me

I still smiled but turned weary

Untimely, I wasn’t sure I love him too

But now I know it’s true that I do

I was loved just as you

I let go to make it true

I may lose a beloved beau

But please not you

…not a friend like you