STILL GOT THE FEELING FOR YOU

Do you ever ask your heart?
Why do you love me? But now why you leave me
I am so quite since you aren’t with me
The days pain me, the months hurt me

I never regret I have ever loved you with all I have
Once life is full of love, now life is full of agony
I am like a calm sea but ripple inside
Waiting here harm me so bad

If only you know how deep I feel for you
But there is no way, I can believe to get to you
I find so hard and I can feel my heartache
Your love for me is too beautiful to forget

I want to feel the feeling of love again with you
But today, this time I don’t know where you are
Leaving me alone and so lonely
Hopelessly I just can see the love far away


Till now I still got the feeling for you

:(

I want you here now.
I want you to be with me
Always...
But you're away
Gone for now...

Nothing's really changed
You are still here in my heart;
I know I must stay where I am
You must do the same;
Even though we are apart.

I don't feel quite as hopeless
Now that I haven't seen your face;
For I know I live in your heart;
I cannot be erased
For just a little while...

As I'm thinking of you
Just be with the one
Who's sent my heart reeling,
Brought downpour emotion feelin',

I sit here alone in my office tonight,
My thoughts that weren't borrowed
found someone who was just meant for me

I can't explain why this should be happened
There is one thing that I know for certain
This just ain't over till one of us draws...

My choice to make, I'll never let you go,
Don't know what life holds,
Maybe there's no reason or rhyme...

To think you may be mine in a matter of time,
Though I cannot touch you
We are now apart,
You do dwell, so deep within my heart.

Once more together, love undone,
The tenderness, the satisfying
Way we share our love undying...

Takes us to wondrous place
Make it what t'was meant to be
A place for you, a place for me....

A Cured Soul

I didn't know it could happen, so fast and yet it did and before I could get back up, I was down on the ground, bleeding to my demise once again. I was hurt; my tears ran dry.

My heart no longer beats like it used to. It's cold and like a stone, it's only there to keep me alive, without a beat or any life inside.

I, too, once used to believe; in the goodness of all and how everyone can be much more and we think. I used to think of love, pleasure and serenity, however, now I know better. Though pleasure and serenity do exist, and can be achieved, it has nothing to do with love of any.

It's a myth. A lie. A tale which isn't true. For love doesn't exist, and never could to you.
I was trapped in your false beliefs. I had been blind by the lustful desires that you had caused me.

Even though years have passed, I'm still scarred with my past. It was you who cursed me with this sorrow of the ages. I'm stuck in a cycle of never-ending pain.
Even though I don't think of you. Every day reminds me of how you hurt me and how I built myself up from scratch.

I was yours. I was true. I never had lied. However, you thought of all that was untrue.
You torn me into pieces, and expected me to forgive you. It is all your fault, for what I am is because of you.
All those I hurt, were all because I could never hurt you.

Although, it seems as if decades have passed, it's only been a few years. I know you blame me for everything that happened, but I can never help myself for I still think, that by some miracle, you would stand next to me, and apologize for every wrong you've done.

It's a fool's dream to fantasize of such days, for your heart is a bottomless pit.
Although I still walk around, with a smile on my face. My life that seems so perfect to everyone, is nothing but an image.
Inside, I'm broken and cracked. However, I never let anyone see my weaknesses for I am what they call, so Amazon like.

It's been ages since I have truly felt alone. For I have taught myself to love myself for no one else would.