I am Sorry

I’m sorry of being so emotional
I’m sorry of being so possessive
I’m sorry that I cry for you
I’m sorry because I can’t live without you

I’m sorry for the tears you shed
I’m sorry for the damage I made
I’m sorry I’ve made you sick
Sorry I hurt you so deep

I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights
I’m sorry for each and every fight
I’m sorry for your pain & agony
I’m sorry for the missing harmony

I’m sorry for my selfish love
I’m sorry for not caring enough
I’m sorry for my restlessness
I’m sorry for the losing grace

I’m sorry my friend I made you mad
I’m sorry darling you are so sad
Sorry for not giving you any happiness
Sorry because it’s my disgrace

I’m sorry for thinking of you so very much
I’m sorry I always miss your touch
I’m sorry of being so mad about you
I’m sorry for my every blue

I’m sorry of being so immature
I’m sorry now that can’t be cured
I’m sorry of being myself
I’m sorry that I’ve failed

I’m sorry and sorry again
I’m sorry of being insane
But believe me that I love you
Should I say sorry for that too? 

Waves (A Final Letter Home)

I lie and let the waves wrap 'round my feet,
As midnight skies perform the second act,
Where black and blue so effortlessly meet
And force the waters cold around my back.
I feel the sand bequeath my buried toes;
To let the grit defy my supple skin
And as the open door to my soul grows
I let the frothy waters trickle in.

The moonbeams push my head into a daze
And buckle up the oceans into folds,
They crash upon the land through every phase
Then pleat the sands in melody moulds.
I cover up my body with the art
To hide away from maddening despair,
As seas take from the shore a fractured heart
And wash back in the love in full repair.

This place where sand and sea exchange their gifts
Is written into fabrics bored of time
And openly they have their ancient rifts
But secretly they share their love, divine.
My body, frozen shards of broken dreams,
Was scattered to the winds as though but dust,
Though nature built my body’s woven seams;
By god was built my love, my faith, my trust.

And here amongst the shorelines of the world
I sit and let the wave’s envelope me.
They carry out my body, seams unfurled,
Unto the mighty froth, the boundless sea.
I sink into a darkness full of light
And let the bonds that hold me wash away.
The moon bows low and disappears from sight,
As life arises with the coming day.

But what is left of me, on pristine lands
Where once my body fell and trickled dry,
The outlines of my body stain the sands;
The passage of my soul ruptures the sky
But as was once before all is again,
As mighty waves erase my fragile hue,
Though here I fell before the hands of men;
I send my soul adrift, back home to you.

MIRRORED VISION

I looked into the mirror and I wasn't there,

I couldn't find myself,

I looked all around and I wasn't on the shelf,

I looked behind the mirror, but no, just a wall

I wasn't there at all.

I thought perhaps I was dreaming,

And I was really there and beaming,

I thought, I might have washed my face

So much, I left no trace

But i can feel my nose and in a profile pose,

I will wipe the mirror clean

So I can see me, oh so serene,

But truthfully, nowhere to be seen

I must have died and gone to heaven

At this late hour of eleven

Or may be i should see an optician

For more perfect, mirror vision

Ho tere ishq mein dooba rahe
Din-raat yunhi sada
Mere khwaab se aankhein teri naa hoye juda
Mera naam tu haathon pe apne likhe baar haan
Aye kaash ke aisa bhi din laaye woh Khuda
Tu hi mera mera mera 
Tu hi mera aa aa.. 
Tu hi mera mera mera

Hai teri chahat meri zaroorat
Sooni hai tujh bin duniya meri
Naa reh sakoonga main door inse
Hai meri jannat galiya teri
Ho... ho ...
Ho.. teri 
Hai teri chahat meri zaroorat
Sooni hai tujh bin duniya meri
Naa reh sakoonga main door inse
Hai meri jannat galiya teri

Ummeed ye seene mein leke main hoo jee raha
Kabhi tu mile kahe mujhse ke main hoon tera
Tu hi mera mera mera 

Tu hai qismat tu hi hai rehmat
Tujhse hi judi hai meri har khushi
Tu hi mohabbat, tu hai raahat
Lagti bhali hai teri saadgi
Paata hoon khud ko tere bina tanha
Mujhe thaam le, mujhe rok le
Bhatka hoon main bhatka

Tu hi mera mera mera 
Tu hi mera aa aa.. 
Tu hi mera mera mera

The Writer

She writes everything she feels. She pours her heart out just to feel something inside that's real.
She sees love, hate, pleasure and lust. She tries to feel it too but all she can do is understand what it might feel like.
Her heart has endured more than anyone's should. She has lost old friendships, she has fought losing battles and now she stands in the middle of a crowd, searching for something hidden, something she knows not of truly.

She understands and comprehends all that her black eyes see.
Though she wishes she could feel it all too, she is unable to find what she needs. Looking in all the wrong places, all she has found is pain, misery and sorrow. She is stuck with people she can not harm, but every fiber in her body screams to rip everyone apart.

She can transform herself into whatever her surrounding might require. From a gracious host to the life of an event. She tries to keep everyone happy. She tries to please all those around her.
She grows tired of her present life. She wishes to breakout and show everyone what she is truly like.
However, she is afraid. Frightened, to be true. She fears rejection from all those around her too.

Her true form isn't hideous, she's beautiful, it's true.
Her true form is much too much to handle and to take in, and already she feeds of low of love and acceptance, she'd die if it all were to go.

Her face is masked with fake smiles and her being echoes with laughter from her childhood.
She makes you believe that she is happy, though the truth couldn't be more further.

She denies that she suffers from unhappiness. She denies that she's lost. She denies that she is broken inside. She denies it all, just so she wouldn't be a burden on anyone.

She helps and gives advice. She tells you what's right.
She understands everything you say, she understands it all for your sake.

She listens to everyone else's sorrows, and never speak of her own.
Her friends read every page of her blog, but they never see that she's been writing about her life all along.

in the world of women

In the world of women, it all seems happy.
In the world of women, it all seems fine.
No body, however, notices the deep cracks beneath surface, the tears behind the laughter, and the haunting pasts behind those beautiful smiles.

Though we fight and the world sees it all, we never do ruin each other’s chances to find true love. We may hate and we may scream, but all we need is to be heard and to be seen.
We do confuse, but that’s how we conquer. We are warriors within, even if our armors seem rusted and broken.

Some of us were raised with fairytale lies, some were taught bitter lessons of life. We are all vulnerable and afraid, but we have learned to make ourselves strong and brave.
We are all goddess in our own ways. Some are like Athena, some are like Aphrodite and some are the true essence of Mother Nature.

Though we think too much, even for our own good, but we do it anyways so that we can understand you.

We know we are easily hurt by little things but do you not see how we smile through the worst of all heartbreaks and the most devious lies?

We aren’t as strong as we wish to be but we are strong enough to bring you to your knees.

We are not all beautiful inside or out, but we all have a heart of gold buried deep beneath the surface of what is seen. It is not easy to understand us, because we suffer the same. Our minds are always occupied with someone we believe doesn’t know us.

We are lovely wives and fierce mistresses. We are jewels hidden in a secret place. We are loved and hated but without us, there is no survival.

We see what others miss. We love what people despise. We show no fear and we smile through it all.
In the world of women, battle is fought and won every day.
We learn and we live with smiles and laughter even though there are deep cracks in our armors.

We are creatures of the night and goddesses of the day.
We are a force not be provoked.
We are an army not to be touched.

forever

''You are my soul mate until the end,
and no matter what, you will always be my friend.

You make me smile, like no one else can,
you will always be my man, my angel, and I will always be your girl.

Take my hand, as we journey through the path of life,
which will soon result, with you as your wife.

How did I end up with someone so great?
I never knew it would be so short to find my soul mate.

Now that I found you my princes, I am never letting you go,
We were meant to be, that is something I definitely know.

At times you're worried that I am gonna say no more
but I could never do that, not to someone I adore.

You will always be loved by me, so do not fear,
I will always be there, to wipe your tear.

I will always be there for you, right by your side,
forever and always, my future life.

My life has a meaning now, all because of you,
you will always be loved by me, no matter what we go through.

Just promise you will never leave me, your so precious to me,
I promise I will never ever leave you, it is a guarantee.

I know we are young, but I know we will last forever,
because you and I, were meant to be together.

You're like a blessing, from heaven above,
I love you forever, forever love.''

Unyielding Memories

Another day goes by, another night when I cry myself to sleep. I've tried to be what you wanted but there's no pleasing you either ways. I'm tired and my eyes are sore. I've cried rivers but you never had cared for my soul.

I'm falling apart. I'm dying inside. I'm trying to smile but my eyes give me away. It's hard for me to walk but the way you treat me, I could have never stayed. I'm at a lost for words. I'm lost inside myself. I have forgotten what I used to be while trying to make you smile.

Though you are far, though we are apart, you still are in my heart. Every time it beats, I hear you whisper my name. Every time I breathe, I hear your voice inside my head. 

This night is so alone. I can't stop thinking about all that you were to me. I hate this feeling of falling in a never-ending spiral of eternity. My dreams are filled with your kisses and you embrace. 

I had swore that I'd never fall, however I've fallen in too deep, it's getting hard for me to even breathe. I can't stand this trauma. I can't take this state of mind. 

I've learnt to suppress my emotions, and I'll do the same until you feel something real for me.

Time to start my life. This is my moment to be what I wanted to be. I'm done with the rules and I'll live like today's the end. I'm in the middle of a fight for my world. Can't they see I own it? No one can ever touch it.

Wait, pause rewind and replay. You are new here. Do you know me? I'm not what I used to be. Are you really that into me?
I doubt all that's going through my head.

I'm high in all wrong ways. I'm trying get over what was done with year ago. I'm still in love with someone who doesn't care.
The first ones are always there to haunt you all your life. It's them who give you a reason to not and to not forget or forgive anything or anyone.