shattered

As i move in life im getting expired 

emotionally im getting tired 

oh god ,i guess i just want to die and get retired 

cuze every day and every night 

tears come down from my eyes 

I surly need some advice 

im so confused 

with no more excuse 

yah

I just wanna shout

shout out so loud

is thier any body to help me out ?

where the love is gone

where is all the affection

oh god im so sad i guess im in a detention

as i go twards the darkness im loosing sense of direction

i just pose a fake smile to make people feel good

but from inside im burning like a piece of wood

the world to me is no more understood

Whats going on i just dont get it

im loosing hope like i never had it

so much mistake is done

i dont know what wrong or right

with my inner demons im loosing the fight

This are all games played by the devil in my mind

the truth i have to find

sadness with all happenies i got i shall receive

ill try my best  to not get deceived

a   at the end total success ill try to achieve .

ill try not to break apart 

i have to have a new start 

and that is the call of my broken heart 

............

'Just this one moment I ask this from you,
just one more time to show you my love is true.
I will set aside all the word of anger you have said,
just grant me this last place in time before I am dead.
I will not proclaim the hate I feel inside,
let me hold you close and have you be at my side.
You left me when I needed you the most.
In tears I begged you to come just this one last time,
forget your hate and I will forgive your crime.
Take my hand like you have done before,
see into my dieing eyes and see into my heart’s core.
I have loved no other like I have ever loved you,
now life has set its stage for me and I know what I must do.
My body crumbles and my spirit can now be laid to rest,
for lover, friend and mate you are the very best.
I close my eyes and whisper these last words to you,
for I have and will always love you.''

ask your SELF...

I know that I'm not the most beautiful girl in this world, neither the smartest.

I know that you're getting angry at me sometimes, and that I make you to scream and yell at me.

I know that you felt disappointed of me at some moments.

But beside all this, can you forget my face and wont you miss my smile?

Can you forget how you couldn't hold yourself when you were with me of touching or kissing me?

Can't you forget the way you were losing your mind when I was kissing your neck?

Can you forget how I was helping you through your bad nights?

Can you forget the way I looked in your eyes?

Can you forget the way I was holding your hands, kissing them, and playing with your fingers?

Can you forget the nights when I was taking care of you while you were sleeping?

Can you forget all the sleepless nights talking sweet words on the phone?

Can you forget the way I smell?

Can you forget all those cold days when we were cuddling under the blanked, without going out at all?

Can you forget the days when we stayed in bed all day long, doing nothing but holding you in my lap?

Can you forget how I made you to feel special?

You were everything for me.

I was doing nothing but watching after you.

I loved you with all my heart.

I was with you every time you needed me.

I was always there for you, and you were always my priority.

And all I asked from you was just some love, some attention.

But did you gave that to me?

Ask yourself.

MY SUFFERING MY LIFE

I wish this blade would cut my vein, and stop my suffering and daily pain
All I do is break down and cry, I wish so much I could simply die
I put a smile on my face, all my troubles have no trace
I prepare myself before I open the door, but all I want, is to lie on the floor
Each cut I make, seems to ease the pain, and life is bearable with a little less strain 
I take some pills and have a little wait, then in the bath I conduct my trait
The clear water is warm but soon runs red, as the vein I cut, I will soon be dead
I’m feeling sleepy, I close my eyes, its only a matter of time before I die
I open my eyes it all seems white, I turn my head, I’ve lost another fight
In a hospital bed I slowly wake, why can’t the reaper have my life to take?
I get the stigmata when I come round, it just makes me worse, to be put in the ground
Again and again I have continued to try, why can’t people just leave me to die?

Hurt in Love'

You were my day
You were my night
Even when you were far away
You shined for me so bright

You were my sun
You were my moon
You had made fun with me
It was me to save you from doom

My days now turning gray
My nights now covered in dark
There is one thing I wanna say
You had broken me & my heart

I'd give everything to you
You were happy, and made me smile
But your happiness was not true
I felt that just for a while

I thought you'd really love me
Now you act to me so cruel
Can't stand it but I do see
I was just a stupid fool

If you were trying to break me
I got to disappoint you
I am strong and so I'll be forever
Your little vicious plan has not come true

A broken heart...A deep wound
A wound that I can heal
The problem is the builded bound
And the pain that now I feel

My friends are with me
They are always like a shield by my side
That's the reason why, you gonna see
You cannot kill me and my pride

Life means joy and sorrow
These are life's obvious part
But we all wish to fullfill
The dreams in our heart. ♥ (-_-)

Are you masked??

Welcome to the mysterious mask of this twisted world 
Countless stuck in its dominant grasp, unable to escape it 
Probing for meaning and truth, but lost 
Hidden behind artificial smiles and materialistic objects of desire, to cloak inner feelings from others 
Trapped in the devilish web of social conformity with no way of ever leaving 
Running astray from individuality and independence, but afraid of being alone 
Scared of your own beliefs that run constantly in your minds, afraid of ridicule from others 
Mimicking others as a source of acceptance, in order to feel needed in this sad world 
Wearing the latest treads and fads, to fill the void of emptiness in your heart 
Walking blindly behind others, to experience a piece of something big 
Close minded towards others outside your group, to feel superior in your small world of deception 
Listening to the music of the masses, not to be left out 
Living a life of lies and deceit, to hide the true nature of your soul 

Are you masked??