cried out loud ....

Harsh words and violent blows
Hidden secrets nobody knows
Eyes are open, hands are fisted
Deep inside I'm hurt..

So many tricks and so many lies
Too many why's and too many how ..
Nobody's special, nobody's gifted
I'm just me, in pain and hurt..

Sleeping awake and choking on a dream
Listening loudly to a silent scream
Call my mind, the number's unlisted...

Lost in someone so painful and hurt
On my knees, alive but dead
Look at the invisible blood I've bled...

I'm not gone, my mind has drifted
Don't expect much, I'm hurt and in pain 
Burnt out, wasted, empty and hollow

Today's just yesterday's tomorrow
The sun died out, the ashes sifted
I'm still here,hurt and in pain..

cried out loud ....